It dawned on me tonight....

It dawned on me tonight, as I sat in darkness watching the dull greenish glow fade ever so subltley from the TV screen, that in a few years, maybe a few decades, maybe a few minutes for all I know, my essence, my life, that indescribable thing that feels, thinks, cries, laughs; that thing peering out from behind my rods and cones as I stand staring into the mirror, trying yet always failing to catch a glimpse of itself, might someday fade, just like that cathode tube.

Morbid? No. Poignant. Beautiful in it's lucidity. Hopefully I'll be ready, and welcome the fading light, in much the same way that the last drag of a cigarette, timed to coincide with the last sip of beer, at 2:30am, how it used to be such sublime perfection at the end of a long night of partying, after all the drugs had been consumed and all the friends stumbled out to their cars.

Like that.

Marrs Maniteaux